True Confessions Tuesday

#1.  I feel like just bursting into tears at the disappointment I feel in myself. I made a resolution this New Years and I broke it. I lasted three months and then in one night, I lost everything I'd worked for and put myself right back into where I was before.

#2. I've been completely unmotivated this week. I'm avoiding the gym, I'm putting off tracking, I'm reaching for things-- that while they comfort me in the moment-- aren't any good for me. This just gets me into a cycle of "if I didn't go to the gym today, I'm not going to  make myself eat well, because it's just not going to do any good"....and then if I don't eat well, I'm much less inclined to go to the gym because I feel crappy over what I've eaten.

Looking at these confessions, it just proves to me that they are both tie into the same thing-- My emotions-- more specifically, my *negative* emotions and how overwhelmingly present they are in my life all the time.  I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression a few years ago and it occasionally breaks through my medication regime and rears its ugly head.  I know that the way I'm feeling right now is part of that and I know that I just have to keep the faith so to speak and trust that I can ride this one out...




***WORKOUT***
treadmill 10 minutes 80 Calories
Arc Trainer 30 Minutes 432 calories